30032014 - Part of the day

Do you think that's all???
No!!! It's never end!! But it's becoming a new start in every seconds
I had took my portfolio and interview at tarc today
I use 15 and 20 minutes to finish it
Honestly.. i really dont satisfied it as well... cause it's really in a rush time and i just simply drew it..
I ask them can i tomorrow just come and draw again and interview???
They say can't
The fashion lecturer is asking why i want for tomorrow..
I said because i'm not satisfied with it.. it's not drawing well at all
You know what's he answer me??
He told me:" you are not satisfied with it but i'm very satisfied. You use how many times to draw it?"
"15-20 like that"
"Within this short times and you can draw finish it and it's good enough d. What are you expect for? You are not professional in art yet."
Ya.. i know i'm not so pro.. but it's really suck.. just like shit for me.. anyway.. i finished it.. hopefully i can done the application on time la.. i cant wait to learn that
In the interview, he is asking me why am i chosing fashion?
I say cause i love it so fun. I ever done and design some camp shirt before. Once i heard someone told me that your shirt is nice. You know how touch and happy with it although i'm not so pro compared to others. It's fun to look others wear your design anywhere.. it's really feel great that you ever dont know about that..
I told him i ever never give up in fashion cause my parents dont ever support me..
He told me that when he chose in the course.his father dint talk to him 5 months. But now what he had done are out of his father expected. He told me never get scared and i must be strong enough to take this course.. cause it's not really easy to be done. Sometimes we had work in 20 hours and you just have 4 hours to sleep. You are lucky that you get the fashion lecturer interview of you and sure i want you. Be strong and show them that you can did it well and more than they aspect..
He is giving me the hopes at the moment
And i get my confidence in that
Sometimes we cant scare to step forward because we dont know how beautiful of views and scenery are in front or at the top
We need to catch it by believing
Never Never Never Never Never give up!!
What's the twelfth angel always told to me
Ya.. i will try my best to spend my life meaningful
I still keep a little believe and hope to continue my days
My stories are keeping continue and writen down day by day and page by page
I hope and wish you all have a great life too...
And my dear darling...
I'm so missing and loving you <3
I'm glad that you always beside and support me.. :-*
Oh.. please understand the value of like and love are not equal
Please understand and make sure your feeling before you did it wrongly
Lastly.
Hehe.. it's time for bed
Good night. Sleep tight and sweet dreams..
The day will show us our own story in the next day
Wish you all getting well and happy :-)
Good luck and enjoy your days
I love you all.. muacks :-* <3 ^^

Taylor Swift- Back To December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
A small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And when the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

拾回心情

終於明白為什麼有人說當心情不好的時候
就什麼都別管
找個安靜地方
靜閱手中的書
把自己帶入故事裡
試著把自己捲入他們之中
意外發現得到了很多啟發
讓自己找到希望
看到前方的光芒
難怪有人說書是最好的心靈解藥
讀完後
心境會恢復得很好
心中會找到一處讓讓它歇息
不再那麼痛苦
聽聽悅耳的音樂
更讓自己明白所謂舒適感
那種感覺
真的很平靜
感覺上似乎在海邊吹著海風
聽著波浪的奇妙的演奏會
看著浪花歡樂的舞蹈
多麼讓人愉快
讓人感嘆
當所有人以為倫敦天橋塌下來的時候
但橋卻捱過所有風風雨雨
讓人感嘆
之間建立起友誼的形形色色
即便流過淚
卻重返當中點蜜的滋味
哪怕刺痛過
卻欣賞那種勇氣

是否記得小時候常和朋友一起玩的「倫敦天橋垮下來」
記得當時唱的就只有這麼一段
"London Bridge is falling down,
 falling down, falling down,
 London Bridge is falling down,
 My fair lady. "

到了今天
人生進入20歲月
才知道這首童謠其實不只那麼一段

London Bridge is falling down,
Falling down, falling down,
London Bridge is falling down,
My fair lady.

Build it up with wood and clay,
Wood and clay, wood and clay,
Build it up with wood and clay,
My fair lady.

Wood and clay will wash away,
Wash away, wash away,
Wood and clay will wash away,
My fair lady.

Build it up with bricks and mortar,
Bricks and mortar, bricks and mortar,
Build it up with bricks and mortar,
My fair lady.

Bricks and mortar will not stay,
Will not stay, will not stay,
Bricks and mortar will not stay,
My fair lady.

Build it up with iron and steel,
Iron and steel, iron and steel,
Build it up with iron and steel,
My fair lady.

Iron and steel will bend and bow,
Bend and bow, bend and bow,
Iron and steel will bend and bow,
My fair lady.

Build it up with silver and gold,
Silver and gold, silver and gold,
Build it up with silver and gold,
My fair lady.

Silver and gold will be stolen away,
Stolen away, Stolen away,
Silver and gold will be stolen away,
My fair lady.

Set a man to watch all night,
Watch all night, watch all night,
Set a man to watch all night,
My fair lady.

Suppose the man should fall asleep,
Fall asleep, fall asleep,
Suppose the man should fall asleep,
My fair lady.

Give him a pipe to smoke all night,
Smoke all night, smoke all night,
Give him a pipe to smoke all night,
My fair lady.

Need You Now

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigna

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie

Is made up on your side

[Pre-chorus:]

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

[Chorus:]

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you,

I love the things that you do

[Pre-chorus]

[Chorus]

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do, I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus:]

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear will always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

It's Hard

It's hard to stay positive when nothing ever goes right

I keep myself busy with things to do,
but everytime i pause,
I still think of YOU.

The night

Honestly
Sometimes over happy will found the sadness alone in the darker night
You will found there's a feelings getting you deep down
It's a feeling produces the tears
Somehow will think that and it's nothing at all
Honestly
It's not easy to be done as just be myself
That's some lyrics in my song:

I wanna be fly up high   

Touch the sky

You tell trust myself   Be myself

But baby you won't know i lost my minds 
Since the day getting dark

I wanna be fly up high

Get Dreams high

Making my wish under shining sky

But baby you won't know 
All of these are still far away

But baby you won't know

Without you

I can't fix it myself

Come on!!! 

What am i doing now??

Sometimes i really losing myself that i really force my minds

Fight with the heart 

Fight with selfie

I know i can't to be like that 

I know   I really know

But I found nothing when i face on that

I can I Really can... In my lies

Somehow i know it's just lie

making me feel better

Making me feel worse

Fine!!!!

I'M FINE!!!!

I will show you the way how I've been fine within the stepping stones and always make me fall down

THANKS !!!!

But you always don't know how my real feelings that i really having with it

You won't know how much I desire for your concern at the moments

I'm not wanna the nags I'm not wanna your scolds and so on

Don't you know it's make me become more worse in that

Ya... You don't know...

You're not ever understanding on me from the begun

Hahahhaha

So stupid am i that still wishing the way i want that you show me your love

It's more than you unexperted

And you really don't know blindingly is the most mistake that you use on me

Cause it's always just a wrong way

I'm not that kind of people will seem it like the way to make themselves more concentrate and struggle of their targets

But for me is may lose my minds to step forwards

I'm the kind of people who always need some encourage or identity the way i did

Then i just will be more confidence in doing that

But all of these

You are not understand

You won't know the words you say on me are the reasons make me cry every night

Forget about that already
Go turn to hear songs that i share and sing for a friend on her birthday

And glad that she love it much :)

".....Honestly

Could it Be you and me

Like it was before

Neither less or more

Cause when i close my eyes at night

I realise that no one else

Could ever take your place....."

"You're my sunshine after the rain

You're the cure against my fear and my pain

Cause i'm losing my mind when you're not around

It's all (It's all)

It's all because of you"

"Never should let you go

Never found myself at home

Ever since that day that you walked right out the door

You were like my beating heart

That I, I can't control

Even though weve grown apart

My brain can't seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times

When you kept me up

Late at night

We use to mess around

Laugh and play, fuss and fight

I guess it's too late

I'm dancing this dance alone

This chapter's done The story goes on"

"Baby  Can't believe that you are not with me

Cause you should be my lady

All i want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him

Promise me

You won't let anyone hurt you

Remember, I will always be here for you

Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress

Oh see you in that wedding dress

See you in your wedding dress

Oh see you in that wedding dress"

"Snapping out this misery

Depression this ain't me

But i always turn around 180 degrees 

You got control of me

And I, I can't explain

Somebody call 911 Emergency before i go insane

Since you move on

You took a piece of me

Give it back

So much pain in my chest

Blacking out; heart attack

I guess it's too late

I'm dancing this dance alone

It's too late"

Singing one song and one song

I don't know why

Maybe I'm not so okay

So i just wanna singing and depress out

Maybe I'm just feel better to sing for you

Maybe i have nothing to hide in front of you

Ting...

I miss you and love you <3

Found a status about Pieces

雙魚座過於孩子氣，可愛是可愛，但有時候未免顯得有點兒沒擔當；雙魚座非常愛玩，精力充沛，跟不上他步伐的還是算了吧；雙魚座熱情有限，QQ上非常不愛主動找人聊天，除非是關係特別鐵的朋友；雙魚座脾氣有點兒火爆，但基本屬於氣來得快去得也快型，不難哄，只是不喜歡主動拉下面子哄人，寧願跟你冷戰。

Believe in yourself and others will believe in you!!

原则问题

永远对他人让步的人,最终将没有原则
He that always gives way to others will end in having no principles of his own

有时候不是喜欢作对,只是原则问题
有时候不是喜欢唱反调,只是原则问题
有时候不是喜欢保持沉默,只是原则问题
不是说沉默是金吗? 不是说沉默是最好的语言吗?
那为何有时却是个错误?
很多时候,我决定了一切,但环境不允许我继续
很多时候,我羡慕他人家庭的和睦,我想拥有,而我试着去改善
但是很多时候,当我安排了我的对稿,我的述说时
因为原则问题,
因为处境问题,
因为对象心情问题,
所有的的安排都泡汤了
所有未说出口的稿词又再次吞进肚里
所有的一切又到回原点

很多时候我的原则真的会把我自己推入谷里
而且陷阱还是自己是设下的
真的有够可悲
可笑自己那么的愚蠢
可笑自己那么的无知
可笑自己那么的幼稚
可笑自己为何就那么莫名的相信

很多时候你会觉得害了我一身糟的就是我那些有的没的一堆原则
但你似乎不知道不了解双鱼最大的困境是无有的原则
所以才会发了疯让自己难堪

Hope for the impossible

Life may not be going well for you now, 
but as long as you are here,
as long as you press forward,
anything is possible.
Hold on to hope.

You, too, can allow hope to live in your heart.
Have the courage to pursue your dreams and never doubt your ability to meet whatever challenges come your way.
Keep moving ahead, because action creates momentum,
which in turn creates unanticipated opportunities.

Proud of You

Love in your eyes   ( 你眼中充滿著愛意 )

Sitting silent by my side   ( 靜靜的坐在我身旁 )

Going on holding hand   ( 沿途牽著你的手 )
Walking through the nights   ( 漫步整個晚上 )
Hold me up hold me tight   ( 抱起我 抱緊我 )
Lift me up to touch the sky   ( 讓我能觸摸到天空 )
Teaching me to love with heart   ( 教導我如何用心去愛 )
Helping me open my mind   ( 也幫助我把心打開 )


I can fly   ( 我會飛了 )
I'm proud that I can fly   ( 我很驕傲我會飛了 )
To give the best of mine   ( 給我最好的感覺 )
Till the end of the time   ( 直到時光停頓 )
Believe me I can fly   ( 相信我真的會飛了 )
I'm proud that I can fly    ( 我很驕傲我會飛了 )
To give the best of mine    ( 給我最好的感覺 )
The heaven in the sky   ( 天堂就在天空之中 )

(間奏+文字)
孤獨...
不一定是孤獨...
就算是孤獨...
也還有自己的心陪伴著自己...
何不勇敢的飛向天空呢?

Stars in the sky    ( 星星們在天空裡 )
Wishing once upon a time   ( 希望有一天 )
Give me love make me smile   ( 會有愛給我讓我微笑 )
Till the end of life   ( 直到我的生命結束為止 )
Hold me up hold me tight   ( 抱起我 抱緊我 )
Lift me up to touch the sky   ( 讓我能觸摸到天空 )
Teaching me to love with heart   ( 教導我如何用心去愛 )
Helping me open my mind   ( 也幫助我把心打開 )

I can fly   ( 我會飛了 )
I'm proud that I can fly    ( 我很驕傲我會飛了 )
To give the best of mine   ( 給我最好的感覺 )
Till the end of the time   ( 直到時光停頓 )
Believe me I can fly   ( 相信我真的會飛了 )
I'm proud that I can fly   ( 我很驕傲我會飛了 )
To give the best of mine   ( 給我最好的感覺 )
The heaven in the sky   ( 天堂就在天空之中 )


(間奏+文字)
人..
總是要學著成長..
當你學會飛的那一剎那..
世界..
也環繞著你..
所以..
你不孤獨..

Can't you believe that you light up my way   ( 你不會相信 你已經照亮了我的道路 )
No matter how that ease my path   (路途如何對我來說都已經都不重要了 )
I'll never lose my faith   (我絕對不會失去我的信心 )

See me fly   ( 看著我飛 )
I'm proud to fly up high    ( 我很驕傲我飛的高 )
Show you the best of mine   ( 給你看著最棒的我 )
Till the end of the time   ( 直到時間停止 )
Believe me I can fly~   ( 相信我我真的會飛~ )
I'm singing in the sky   ( 我在天空之中唱著歌曲 )
Show you the best of mine   ( 給你看著最棒的我 )
The heaven in the sky   ( 天堂就在天空中 )

Nothing can stop me   (沒有事情能阻止我 )
Spread my wings   ( 打開翅膀 )
so wide   ( 展翅高飛 )

(結尾+文字)
當你..
渴望藍天的自由時..
展開你的雙翼..
你便能展翅高飛
拋下憂愁. 飛向天際

揮著翅膀的女孩

揮著翅膀的女孩

容祖兒 

作詞：許常德
作曲：陳光榮
編曲：陳光榮
監製：陳國華 / 陳光榮

獨白：一年了，你好嗎？　我現在過得很好
　　　請你不用擔心　我會勇敢的…

當我還是　一個懵懂的女孩
遇到愛　不懂愛　從過去　到現在
直到他　也離開　留我在雲海徘徊
明白沒人能取代　他曾給我的信賴

See me fly　I'm proud to fly up high
不能一直依賴　別人給我擁戴
Believe me I can fly　I'm singing in the sky
就算風雨覆蓋　我也不怕重來

我已不是　那個懵懂的女孩
遇到愛　用力愛　仍信真愛
風雨來　不避開　謙虛把頭低下來
像沙鷗來去天地　只為尋一個奇蹟

See me fly　I'm proud to fly up high
生命已經打開　我要哪種精采
Believe me I can fly　I'm singing in the sky
你曾經對我說　做勇敢的女孩

我盼有一天　能和你相見
驕傲地對著天空說　是借著你的風

Let me fly　I'm proud to fly up high
生命已經打開　我要哪種精采
Believe me I can fly　I'm singing in the sky
你曾經對我說　做勇敢的女孩

我不會孤單　因為你都在

I thought

Ya.. I thought
Every things just i thought
I still keep the thought and lie and joke in my heart until someone break it out
I don't know why every times she will understand my feelings without my saying directing
I don't know why she will know my hurts and pain when the time i say i'm fine and okay and evreyone is believing of that except her
I don't know why she will know the way to get back my smile and laugh just in a second when i still moody
I don't know why everytimes she can get back my soul easily
I don't know why she will still understand of me since we are far the distance and seldom to meet her up
I thought no one not really understand of my minds without i say any words
I thought my heart stories just will get a reader
What i thoughts is ended up till she coming in
I can't continue my pretending on her as she really know of that
I can't continue my lies on her as she can see through my actions
I can't continue to control my tears as she is making me feel so touch
I asked her why everytimes she is so on time to pull me up
Why just only her and she is far away from me
She told me cause we are excellent than best friend
Because we almost like a twin.
Like the thinking. The feelings. And almost the things we found, felt, talking, laughing are the same
Is same! Not almost same!
Hmmm.. ya...I guess.. I think so..
You are so special to me than everyone
The friendship is counting in 7 or 8 years and the counter still be function well
That's why you can get back my soul easily
That's why you can make all my true feelings screaming out from the heart
That's why we are sisters
What she told me that "Sometimes . It is really difficult to forget or trying to find something else to do as busy as possible then will forget the unhappiness. Cause in the end, the feelings will coming back when you alone and free"
Yes.. i knew.. but i have no other way to solve it
I always just have one way to do so
That's searching the way to avoid. To escape. To evade
And till i hate myself to unfollow my heart
That's why everyone ask me to learn how to protect myself
Sometimes.. Not i don't want to.. just my mind tells me that i can't
So.. In the end, i bring myself into troubles without solving the problems on others yet and fail to save myself

Look Forward

From this moment
I have nothing else to do
What can i talk to myself
Just to look forward
Never get back for a look no matter how
Don't care
Don't sad
Don't angry
Don't compare
Don't bother
Don't disappointed
Don't jealous
Don't give up
Just don't to do or think this or that
Just sitting down, relax, look forward and step over
Don't talk to anyone
Don't hear of any words of others say
Just close up your ears  Close up your eyes  Close up your mind
Close up everything that can be function
Don't care how good in the childhood
Don't bother how worse in the teens
Don't scare to step over the future
Times will passing all of these
Don't judge anything
Don't blame anything
Shut up and keep quiet
Just let the heart been talking itself
And the heart story is written down page by page
It's not a secret
It's just a heart story that only have an owner to read through

I know the most important is about the beautiful future; not about the wonderful past
Seem there is a goal had set in the future
What's important more in the past???
No one and nothing at all
Be tough and strong to face and stand on stage
Look up your steps
Climbing up Flying high
I know the one who love me always stay behind
So i can try
Willing to do so and hit the goals
Life is short
Breaks the rules
Forgive quickly
Kiss slowly
Love truly
Laugh uncontrollably
And never regret anything that made the SMILE
SCREAMING LOUDLY TO THE WORLD:
     "I'M FINE!!!!!!!!"

Fly against the howling wind

Sir Wiston Churchill, the Prime Minister of Britain during the Second War, once said:
  " The Greatest Lesson in Life is to realise that even fools are right sometimes!"

Every single day means different story for everyone
Some people may get the happiness; some people may get the sadness
some will be suffering
Some will be wondering
Some will enjoying.......

The world is not what it seems
Maybe it's not about the happy ending
Maybe it's about the story

Don't blame or judge the God why always bring you into troubles
God always fair and impartial to everyone
He won't specially care and love on anyone else
REMEMBER...
God has 4 gifts for you:
                        A key for every problem
                        A light for every shadow
                        A plan for every tomorrow
                        And a joy for every sorrow

God will cause even the worst things to come together for good.
Hold on to the promises of God, no matter what you see on the outside.
God is good.
If He allows something bad to happen, you may not understand it,
but you can hold on to His goodness.

So just take a chance and risks
You never know how absolutely perfect somethings could turn out be
Dreamers are not just dreamers
They won't let their dreams just be dreams
Life ain't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride to go through

Don't you know??
Kites rise highest against the wind, not with it!!

Just remember-
     When you think all is lost, the future remains.

思想作祟

原來負面情緒真的會被傳染
哪怕只是一秒鐘
命運都愛跟我們開玩笑
原以為一切都會平靜
哪怕是下場狂風暴雨
雨下得好安靜
心情卻波動巨大
究竟是你我被現實蒙蔽了雙眼
還是認清了現實的殘酷
有的人拼了命只為保護自己
讓自己死裡逃生
有的人拼了命想逃脫困境
卻始終停留在那兒被現實所折磨
小時候
多麼渴望快點長高長大
多麼渴望逃離不懂我的家
多麼渴望追求那懵懂的美好未來
多麼渴望伸手就能碰到天
日子一天一天過去了
一年復一年
真的逃離童年之後
才發現自己錯失了當時僅僅存有的童真  純真 與歡樂
真的長大後
慢慢發現自己小時候編織的未來與明天
永遠出現在童話故事裡
時間流逝在成長的過程中
才明白所來當初想逃離的是自己這輩子最珍貴的禮物
是上帝為自己的誕生獻給自己最高尚的祝福
有時候
真的不懂為何上一秒微笑下一秒就變得好無趣
開始活在自己的世界
把自己關閉
讓自己保持在憂傷情緒
但就是沒有實際原因讓自己陷入如此狀況
有點抽離了本身
毫無感覺
慰問那些苦民都能生活
自己卻還在埋怨
是埋怨嗎？？
我也不懂
有時候
也許太過寧靜
才會開始胡思亂想
想著有的沒的瑣碎事
讓自己面臨進退兩難
算了吧
就這樣算了吧
反正總有一天會懂得如何再次重生
你可以選擇暫緩你夢想的進度
但你絕對不可以停止相信與追求它的意願
哪怕只是一丁點
甚至渺小
但是
請原諒及允許讓我繼續任性
偶爾像迷失方向
獨自發狂
毫無目的

人永遠都會對明天感到期待

但也感到徬徨  感到害怕

有的人不怕明天

卻恐懼於思考著未來

別擔心我究竟怎麼了

有時我也很想知道我究竟怎麼了

反正總而言之

怪只怪的是
我的思想總是愛在作祟

This chapter's done; Story goes on

不想回到過去
不想到達未來
更不想停留現在

我的生活  我的眼睛  我的臉上
我的淚水  我的哀傷
全都被吞噬在胸口
那種病症
不是啃了藥就會恢復健康
那個腫瘤
不是一個手術就可完全切除
那種烏雲
不是下場雨就能雨過天晴

外面夏天的風還在狂吹
冬天未到  心卻在下著雪
冷凍之處  變得太過安靜
雪花紛飛之處
變得格外寂寞
即便床上還有著一堆小熊相伴
卻依然獨自一個享受孤單的夜晚

那一刻
太過憂傷
那一刻
想得太多
那一刻
後悔了一切
那一刻
不懂身上又多加了幾道傷痕
那一刻
很狠心地虐待自己
自虐傾向再度復燃
那一刻
傷透了內心深處的靈魂
那一刻
忘了所謂的生存之道
那一刻
渴望逃離這世界

那一刻

腦袋不停的在想

那一刻

心裡不停地責罵自己

那一刻

不懂出現了幾個人格

那一刻

幾乎崩潰了

那一刻

我快瘋了

藍白交替

喜歡藍白交替的人
肯定會愛上希臘這個國家
懂得浪漫的人
一定會愛上希臘愛情海
很多人都說
愛上藍白色的人都很容易陷入憂鬱
也許你是對的
但愛上它是無法自拔
愛上它讓自己充滿希望
愛上它讓自己找到了寧靜
愛上它也讓自己充滿了幻想
這些都是自然而然愛上了
無法控制，甚於停止
:)

除了想,还是想

在洗澡间被水冲着
脑袋浮现的画面感想不停地切换

想着过去;
想着现在;
想着未来。

想着你
想着他
想着回忆中的画面

也不懂为什么想得那么多
反正就被水冲着
渴望能把脑袋给清醒

想着想着
就想通了其中一件事,一个道理
"人生没有绝对过不去的路;只有愿不原意与敢不敢跨过去。"

人生就是得经历阻碍
试想想
如果一切的梦想和愿望
都能不用付出任何代价或努力就可以实现
那么它还称得上是梦想吗?
人生最珍贵的就是过程
其中含有多多少少的泪水,痛苦,欢笑,疯狂等
但就因为这过程才足以让自己成长
也许莫天你真的会发现所谓的未来还是有着未来。

那些一生要攒钱去一次的地方

我向往北海道的樱花 我羡慕吉维尔小镇的风情万种 我爱上爱琴海的蓝白交替 …… 我爱上旅途 爱上一路的游历奔波 我不怕迷失在哪片森林 不怕打湿心爱的鞋子 不怕阳光晒黑我的皮肤 每一次的出行 都有让我神往无限温柔乡 要么在行走的途中 要么在欣赏的路上。西班牙，科尔多瓦，整个城区是一片花的海洋。门前、窗外、墙上和小巷里到处是盛开的鲜花。随便钻进一条小巷，雪白的墙壁上，错落有致地挂着各色天竺葵，在这里迷失的不仅是方向，还有你的心。

西班牙-康苏埃格拉（Consuegra）风车村，从马德里坐2个小时的汽车到达consuegra，小镇很宁静。Consuegra的风车没有门票费用，唯一的收费景点是山上的城堡，门票3欧元，其历史可以追溯到12世纪。城堡面积不大，但是有一定高度，居于其中可以从不同的角度欣赏大风车。

有水就有桥，威尼斯的桥条条相连，只要不怕转弯抹角，想要去哪儿都能走到，根本就不用乘船。当时我正在小河边的咖啡馆享受咖啡，眼前的河道很安静，这时从远处划来一艘贡多拉，幽静的河道刹那间平添生机，穿透房屋之间的阳光打在水面上，船夫载着一对相爱的夫妇，一幅悠然自得的画面诞生了。

乱红堆雪，童话美境，位于爱尔兰的Moss Bridges（莫斯桥）。

苏格兰斯凯岛的仙女池。

大溪地~~~美的让人窒息~~~

这是美国塞班岛的海浪，清澈的如同翡翠一般！

西班牙托雷多 美得就像画一样。

在爱琴海，让我们迷失的不止是蓝色的大海，还有这让人迷醉的繁花。

沙港国家公园太浩湖，飘渺的感觉。

酒红色的西班牙街道...令人醉心的美！

挪威上空的极光，美得不可言喻

普罗旺斯的梦幻城堡……

希腊爱琴海边得蓝色小屋，蓝到让人心都碎了！

荷兰海牙老图书馆，我被惊艳到了。

皇后镇上的银河系，新西兰

I mIss My Little Teddy

How could i simply lose it without any realising
Gosh!!!
How could i get it back??
Who can teach me the way to find it and get back to my side??
Argh!!
Who will really understand my feelings now?
IT just like you are missing some thing inside your heart and you have nothing to do
It's stuck and suck!!!
My dearie little teddy..
Where are you???
You may say i have many teddies with me
Losing of one does not means anything
But for me
Every teddies mean important and different for me!!
I can't even take it back as well once i lose it
Argh!!!
I Blame to myself!!!
How could i so careless with this????!!!!
Grrrrrr!!!
My dear God
Could you bless me and help me search the way to find it back :'(
I promise i will take care of it better and better :'( :'( :'(

Get Back The Warm and Happy :)

Wow...
Time pass so fast..
Now already in March!!
Well...
I just pass my birthday..
And now I'm 20 years old already
there's a lot of mind and things change start on this age
But what can i say is
I am still who am i although some how you will find out some difference compare to the last years
Well.. It means we had grown up day by day
Sure everything had change
Okay
Talking back to my birthday
This year
it means a lot for me
Before reaching my birthday
My mood are damn down
Please don't ask me why again
Lazy for thinking on that
And before my birthday
I was surprised with one things
It's a birthday present from a friend, Wei Teng
Hahahah.. look back of our friendship and the days that we passed through
I really appreciate for it
I was surprise and happy not only because of her
But because of i wonder why she will know i love music notes
Seem i never told her before
But i'm glad that she knew..
Hehehhe...
And it has long long time ago that i dint receive any present from delivery
It so nice and beautiful :)
Heheheh.. it make me laugh when i think back of the time that i was telling dear all of these
But he get some misunderstanding
Hahahha.. He sound cute of that time :D
Dar.. Don't be so jealous la..
I'm always yours.. :-*
Hmmmm...
I get my new phone too in my birthday :D
Finally.. i get it.. hahah.. feel so happy with that
His mom and he were coming my office for giving me that
Ehemm.. So happy
La la la la la la la la la la la~
The day after my birthday
I was taking half day leave for my work
And i was going to Penang with my dear
Hehehhe... I'm so excited for going there as i get to go beach already
Woohooo =D
Both of us are going to Gurney mall for desserts while waiting for jiejie and her friend come
Hahahha.. Her friend name Jo
and he's quite nice and gentleman
Hmmm... But four of us don't know why
Everyone cant sleep well at night and the next morning.. Everyone seem tired and cant wake up
Hahahha
There's full of joy and happiness in the journey although there contain some tiredness
We went to Penang Hill after going to the beach that opposite of our staying place
 I'm first going up there
The scenery are so nice and beauty
Just four of us are just keep walking as we don't know where the actual place
Hehehe.. who ask us come without any survey leh
But get time for exercise la :P
I mean myself cause the three others always go for gym one except me :P
We talk quite long time for walking around 1km to the Monkey cup there
But in the end..
we are not getting inside when we reach
hahahah
I really love and like the place
The houses at there are nice and unique
Wow... And the scenery is damn nice
Teeeheee
Walk untill we feel tired and sleepy
We go First Avenue for lunch first
We still keep sitting at the food court when we finish eating while waiting for jomien
But it still have some times for going
After calling for Jomien
We go and play pool
It's my first time walk in and play
hahah.. get chance to look on
Furthermore.. we play balling
Honestly.. i don't know how to play it and my fingernails are quite long
So i just simply throw it.. But it work and get shocked with it
Hahaha.. Zuray and Jo are so seriosly playing on that also cant get.. But me..
Hahahah... Anyway.. It just ONE time only.. Hahaha
Don't ask what technique of that.. Cause there is broken rules and no any technique.. Just luck :P
And i just realise that why they all know of everything???
Hmmm.. After fetching Jomein
Jo is driving back to Kepala Batas cause jie is too tired and sleepy d
She's don't know what she doing actually
Jie is driving so fast that time..
It's around 140 or 150
Wow.. It's my first time to sit in someone car with this speed
Can you imagine??
We just use 30 minutes for reaching Alor Setar
hahahah.. but it's not bad
On the way we back.. We just talking about Jo.
Everything just JO
Hahahha.. Jie... It's time for you to Wait and wait
Hahah.. Who's know it will happen like me and Zuray next time right ;)
We go Tree House for gathering with G.ROCKA members before going back to home
Share. Joke. Chat. Drink. Eat. Fun. Laugh. Emo
Everything is there...
I'm staying at jie's house of that night
She fetch me go for breakfast before i go to office
She come my office and fetch me go for lunch
Jian er and she come and fetch me back to her house when i finish working
Hahaha.. And finally.. I get chance to see and hear you play guitar and singing of your new song
It's sound great..
Hehhehe
The stories are still continue for everyday :)
Thanks for bringing me go through of the days and make it special and meaningful
Heheheh... Really full of stories in few days
I'll remember for it all the times :) ;) :)
Well..
Everyone is back to their study place already
I will always miss you all, love you all and bless you all with every second i breath in :)