Moody

Sometimes i had try to text you
But i don't know why
After i finish i tape my text
I have no reason for sending out
Sometimes i feel that i worry on you
Wanna know and hear some news of you
But i don't think i suppose to get my step since you're not asking me too
Sometimes i'm thinking that is it ending??
I don't know
I have no points to unstop it
There's a big mirror blocking the communications between both of us
Sometimes i have hesitation between these
But i still don't have courage to step over it again

Last night
My dear asking me what's wrong with me
I don't know
I really don't know
Just moody
And i don't know why
The tears just coming down without any controllable
I just feel scary
Just feel lack of security
Just feel scare
You ask me what am i scaring actually
I don't  know
I just scare on every things
Don't know why feel like the worlds will forget on me in one day
Feel like i cant moving on again and others
That's a lot of things making me losing myself
I'm not purposely wanna making you all worry about me
I'm not purposely wanna hidden up myself
I'm not purposely wanna walking alone at the street
I'm not purposely wanna do the such things that you don't like
I'm just feeling damn suffering and like wanna drunk
I know it does not work as well
But i just wanna try so that i can stop thinking and can  sleep
Once i sleep
I can stop thinking on others
You ask me am i missing on my friends?
I direct say "I'm NOT!!!"
You said but i wrote it in my blog
Ya.. I miss.... But i just miss the moments that been together before
I just miss the sweet moments that i know it never get back again
I just miss but i'm scaring to meet on them
I just scare for missing up again..:'(
I can't letting them know how worst am i
Get to know
I was getting down and down
Can't forget and ignore the main things making me become so dumb is because of my results
It is making me losing my ways and paths that no one really know how am i feeling
I can't express it out
And i'm scaring on every things
Darling
Can you hug me for awhile
I just can be crying out in front of you
And for now
I don't know what can i do for
Honestly
I don't like exams
Cause it always make me become bad and influence my feelings
Please don't always showing so shock with my results
It will make me feel more pains in deep that no one really know that how i aspect in my targets actually
Sometimes i also just act like nothing with others
But they won't know that my heart already cries for many times
I hate with this dumb stuffs
Sometimes i was crazy thinking on i always cry and cry
Will i been blind in one day
If the days are coming
What i wanna do
There is no a way that i can continue chasing my dreams with this
So i just try to stop and get back my smiles
But sometimes the tears are not hearing my voice
Is it really contains many secrets in a smiling face??
I don't know
I think maybe it's true that no one can really understand it as well
I thought i wont crying like waterfall anymore
but... HAHAHAHA
Sometimes i was thinking that how to stop the tears?
I try with many ways if i really wanna stop it
But sometimes it works, Sometimes it doesn't
Sometimes it make me feel like why the tears of the Pieces are not valued
since it is damn full enough just like FREE