18052014

Haven't update my blog for long ady.. I'm been here in kl for one week ady.. am I okay. Ya.. will be fine. . Hope so.. just Miss home more.. hehe...
11052014
The day of his graduation. . 10am reached Toni and guys academy
Start to make up.. bleach hair and so on.. look so different before and after..
Hmm.. but we don't have our breakfast or lunch yet that time.. he's so busy that.. anyway.. The graduation is going well and smooth.. hehe.. but I'm really always wear high heels so it made me felt pain and last I take off and walking without wearing it.. hahax

 Preparing

 Me and shijie

Aunty Tracy and me

After show (free time)

How's my college life?? I guess it's okay.. just very few people. The students that took fashion degree year 1 just got 5 people include me.. and the colour theory class also just have 8 persons.. hehe.. and the college area so big.. lose my ways in it.. hehe.. and I still can't fix myself with the uni life yet.. always look wrong with the timetable ==
By the way.. I love it and wish I can make my days :-)

The garden at block H in my college

And today.. hanging with friends.. We go here and there.. hehe..
Lazy to written everything.. just make some photos here :-P

The breakfast?? Haha

KLCC

Hmmm.. damn lazy to type and update.. :'(

Hehe.. so stop it here..Bye  

But end it with my selfie :-P

Just left one more day

就只剩下一天的时间了
在未得到入学通知前,我满怀期待
如今,我真的得到了
一开始我确实很兴奋,很高兴,很激动
之后,开始担心,开始收拾,开始准备。。。。
现在,就只那么一天,突然我觉得我不舍得这个家,不舍得家人,不舍得离开
第一次真的必须出去独自生活读书
很多人问我一个人去那么远的地方读书可以吗?
很多人跟我说我的认真努力用功读书,在外照顾自己,自己小心一点
我也问了自己
我真的可以吗?
一直以来我都依赖着他人
现在我自己也在怀疑自己是否可以通过这次的考验
就只能凭自己的能力去解决
惨了!!!
我还未离开,却已开始思念这间家了
以前,总爱抱怨,很想逃离不懂我的家
现在机会来了,却希望时间不要过得太快,就让我待得久一点好不好?
可惜,时间根本就不会为谁而停止
就一天时间,我该怎么拥有,我该怎么珍惜这温暖的家
忽然非常不舍这里的一切,我很想很想抱一抱妈咪,却又怕吵醒了她,怕她看见我的眼泪就觉得放不下心,而我确实常让她为我担心
为何人就是如此矛盾呢??
这一趟,不知何时能回来,因为它不是槟城,是的话,那我还可以周末回来一趟
也许必须等到这学期完后,才能再见面
我不懂为何就如此思念
我究竟应该以怎样的态度和心情去面对呢???
3.26am
我竟还在滴滴答答写着
外面的星空
呃。。下雨了。。 能看得见星星吗??
没关系。。 每一个早晨,我会一直祝福你们
我会不断努力,认认真真读完这个课程
我会尽力的
很多时候,我真的什么都不知道
即使知道也装着不知道
结果就真的不知道了

 真是个笨蛋,压力往往本是自己惹上身的。
明知会让自己难堪难受,却一而再,再而三地欢迎它,真的有够蠢!!!!
世界乱了吗???
不然为何心突然乱了???
当我走在前面,我看不到你,觉得你追不上我;
当我走在你背后,我觉得我完蛋了,因为我快追不上你。

stress???

I don't know how to start with all of my feelings..
Just remembered i told you much and much in the midnight...
You asked me"Why you are so stress???  Just relax"
Well.. Am i really can be okay??? The stress and tension are coming to me.. I have a lot of things to wonder and wonder...
I always get to wish God will hear of my sound and voice
And He can bring me up and show my future view
I don't know why every nights make me feel so down that i unable to control
Maybe you are not around
Maybe i think so much
Maybe These.. Maybe Those
Maybe IT'S ME
Just did the way
Someone had told me that i had grown much now.. Cause i used to know that what i want for..
But i'm not dare to tell him maybe he may be wrong
Ya.. Some parts had been grow up.. So i just use to be wonder and suffer with the world.. And i just use to know i need to be happy and make my days no matter how.. So i always telling me that not only the sunrise for today, even for the continue days.. I need to tell myself everythings gonna fine and okay.. And i just believe.. Sometimes it's feel better.. Sometimes it's feel hard.. I don't know it's call of too positive thinking or just lying of myself... Seriously.. I wish to get back when i was young.. So i won't to have think so much with others. So i still can be happy,childish, nonsence, naughty, just to list few... Who care if make mistakes.. When you did wrong, they just will scold you and so on.. At the age, we just will be cried and won't really think and understand what are they going to tell us and making us understand with their meanings... Haih... The past is always in the past.. can't get  back anymore.. What's use to always refresh back.. Argh!!! How come i won't be stress and so on?? Just to tell me how i can be??? HAih.. Just leave me and ignore me which just to go into a huff here.. Just moody and down and stress.. But i think i will be okay as usual.. Wish to... Hope so....

五月五

Hmmm... I had check through online and confirmed that I get the offer letter from college university Tunku Abdul Rahman.
Am I excited?? Ya.. I am... but have much to wonder again
I had tell my friend when I get.. but... but.. but... she look so not okay for today. . Ya.. I know it.. and I just still keep silence beside cause I have nothing to say already. .. she always say I had leave her alone and break her heart.. Every times I just simply answered and wish she would be better.. but it sound like useless... she say she feel to lose that I leave her if I get to study in tarc... and now.. it become true.. I had told my dar last night.. I don't know why my tears drop down and I didn't answer him any words.. I just look of him.. cause I don't know what can I do and I had think so much... If I dint get to study, what should I do? Seem like useless and no more chances to study anymore. . And I had think of if I get it. I would be happy but she say I always leave her... :'(
I had told her at the moments but she looked so down.. at that time, I just think that maybe she need  some spaces and she been busy.. so I just ignore and continue my works.. and I had think of her situations and so on.. I wonder will she be like me that I had cried when the time ting go and study at penang? So.. If yes. Then I would tell her that don't be sad and we still can be contacted and meet.. just like me before.. that time.. it's just me to be in the form 6. Noone is with me like secondary friends.. All my buddy just not around. I remembered that I cried on yun's shoulder and I felt like I can't make my days without them.  But now.. times gone and you had made my days.  Who knows maybe you find better friends in your uni life.. and you is good enough. . You just came and work in the company two months like that.. but you have good communication with others.. sometimes, you still can make fun and jokes with them... but maybe you won't know I still be so quite and just do my works. Before you came, all of them that know of me just like I'm a quiet girl and can always been laugh. .I have no words just will smile with them... honestly,  you have good communication with others.. don't know I should be happy or what... nevermind. . Don't bothers it.. just wanna you know everything will be fine... and you are a lucky girl.. you should be appreciated with all the things that you have now... be positive... actually when you talk with your mom.. I have something to say but once I look at you.  All my words are gone...
It's so silent in our lunch time today.  No any words.. everyone just eating silently. . Honestly, I feel uncomfortable.  But i know you're not okay and nothing to be shared and say.. so I still act like it's nothing..
When I go your shop after working,  your mom asked me where are you?  I just showed her the way you go and go and drive the car to here.. and I had say out that you have kidnapped.  She say it is my fault you kidnapped, cause I'm the one who bring you.................
Okay.. I know.. it's always be my fault when you're standing with me. Just like you say I always hurt you ma... but only God know what am I feeling every moments within all of these.... just wish you're okay and be okay
Result for Muet test is released in today too... sad to say that it's not okay.. I wonder why my results getting worse and worse with year by year :-(
But now.. I tell myself I should be more stronger enough that I always be the best. Don't bother it's a lie or joke or dream. I just need to show.. Just need to show!!!
Still got few days to go.. but i don't have a confirm room to rent and stay yet... ya.. I had found some.. but when I discussed with mommy or sis.. they just ignored me... I found so hard and you all thought it is so easy to be found??? I have no more times... If still let time be... I'm sure that I gonna sleep on the street :'(:'(

Labour Day + MAY FOOL???!!!

Haih.. too late to update my blog :'(
Every times i feel like i wanna written down all the things happening in the day then update and share with you all..
But... But... But.... I am so lazy... Damn lazy... No wonder he always call me like little pig =.=
Anyway... Just to share now...

30/04/2014
It's Wednesday!! And start to be two days hoilday!!
Hmm.. Can say be happy too.. I guess so..
Cause after 6pm... Time to back home after work
As usual..I walked to the bus station wait for the bus
But today... Waiting and waiting... But the bus doesn't come yet..
When the time i was waiting.. I was texting with my dear and shijie too... At the moment.. Gastric comes to me.. Haih...
Forget about the gastric first..
Turn back to the texts between me and both of them.. ^^
Firstly, when the time walking to the bus stop.. i was with shijie.. But she is so.... I don't know how to say.. Maybe she feel sad or wonder or whatever.. In short, she make me feel like she's not really okay or happy... Don't know why.. Just feel so.. But i still act i don't know and ignore her...
She keep saying i leave her alone and so on since i may go tarc to continue my study and she still need to wait for the local university.. She say she dint get the USM interview letter and so on.. I don't know what can i do and help her... Although i wish i got the power to make others always be happy.. But all are nonsence cause i know there are no this such power in the life.. Maybe yes.. But need to by self to consider what is the means of happiness and how it will come to us.. Ya.. She always say i had change her a lot and bring her full of happiness and so on that she first time to have it.. But i know sometimes she have her problems that i can't ever solve it.. Hmm.. Maybe i am the one who always think too much and feel of it.. Maybe they not feel so and so on.. But i always and ever be the conditions.. So i was scaring my friends be the same conditions that i always have to be.. Ya.. There's a word so true.. "A Happy Girl Always Has Much Secrets And She Won't And Never Wanna Let Others Know"... Ooopsss.. Out of topic.. Anyway.. I wish everythings is going fine... Hmm.. Well.. Back to topic.. Haha.. The things that i wanna say is she is "bullying" me.. Not the real bully la. Just jokes like that.. Cause i know she's just kidding.. She say She wanna throw away my huge teddy that just received to her shop.. And firstly.. we are planning to go asm on the Labour DAy... No.. No no..Suppose is Penang.. Just because of some reasons.. In the end, change to ASM.. And she say she can fetch me and fetch my teddy to my house in the day.. Well.. I don't know what's going on that day.. She keep say wanna broken my teddy and so on.. Oh Ya.. One more thing.. I told her.. "Can you just put my teddy in my house first, the just go to shop and so on? Cause the teddy will feel hot and melt in the car if we just put it in the car.. He will sweating with the big hot sun......." I'm so serious to talk with her, but she's just laughing and so on.. She say i'm crazy "The teddy just put in the box and won't be hot la"  " But if continue put it in the box, later it cannot breath ma" "Hahahah.. So funny....."
And i just feel and think in my mind "Is it funny enough??? Why i just feel like am i saying anythings wrong?? But i'm serious with it.Anythings wrong???"
Seriously... Until now i still can't get what points is making her feel so funny.
Hmm.. anyway.. Haha.. Get chance to make you smile and laugh..And it's worth la..
Hmm.. You say i always make you heart broken and so on then you say you wanna broken my teddy
"How you dare??!!! I'm gonna to tell zuray you bully me and my teddy!!"
"Hahaha.. Go la.. Go la.. Then i tell him i don't want to be his model anymore.. lalalala"
"Ish... You are so naughty!!!" Then i just cross over the road and say bye to her and walk to the station
After that i just text her that i had told zuray already and he answered:" Haha..She throw your teddy away then i throw her away lo" But once i told him you don't want be his model and he said:" Wah..Why like this :'("
I also told you :" You are so naughty.. I tell you.. Please don't hurt my bear.Later i hurt you more you only know :P"
I know you're just playing with me so i dare to do so..
"Haha.... You always hurt me de.. xi guan jiu hao... :P"
And now.. I'm gonna tell.. although i know you just play and joke with me, actually got 10% that i really scare you will throw my teddy at that time:'(
Until you say :"How i dare to hurt your teddy and bully you o??? Just joking la.. Why so serious???"
I just relax and sure you won't do it.. Haha.. not i don't believe of you.. Just if turn to you.. If someone take your love things and joke.. Don't bother who was joking with..You also will fell less scare of it right?? Cause you never know others mind exactly and perfectly what...Heheheh..
Look at the time 1940
OMG!!! Why bus din't come yet.. Call mommy but mommy din't answer my call.. How?? Just text and inform her lo..=.=
After that.. she just call me and so on...
Skip of the others..
In the end, i walked to shijie's shop and she wanna go back to her home to give a tuition .. So, she fetch me back to my yiyi's house...
And no need to wait to till tomorrow and i can bring back my teddy too d :)
Heheh.. Her mom ask me why i gave shijie big teddy suddenly?
"Hehehe.. Cause she always say i leave her alone ma.. Give her one so that she can seem it like me and can talk to her and so on lo.. Hehe"
All of them just laughing..
When i reached yiyi's house.. Daddy asked me:" Wah.. You wanna give me present ar? What's it?"
" Heheh.. Don't know.. Friend give me one"
"So big.. What's that?"
Grandma and yiyi say:" Hahaha..Don't bother what first.. Free one ma take lo"
Hahahah.. I just laughing and answered.. " Ya.. Ya.. FREE one.. Just take la"
Hahahahah...:-D
Daddy :" So big but so light.. No sound someone.. Go and open see what she gave you"
Yiyi :" Sure is soft toys" :)
Hehe.. Guess so..
And it's huge teddy that i say i will have a new member on my bed ^.^

Is it nice??? :)

It's beside me every night start from now

Hugging Hugging :D

Woohoo.. I'm so excited!!
( The photos are taken at yiyi's house )

Hmm.. I cook maggie and add an egg for my dinner.. With Soya Bean ;)

Got Green Curry.. But i'm not dare to try..

When mommy come.. I got my supper with pizza and mushroom soup

Hehehe.. getting fatter and have rough tummy like winnie the pooh soon :P

It's heavy rain when we go back

Yi Xuan always so cute and make us laugh.. Hehe..

01/05/2014

It's Labour Day!!

I wake on 1010

After preparing and so on.. then waiting for shijie while wrapping the clothes.. She say she will be late.. 

But when she came.. i haven't done yet.. Sorry to let her wait again :(

I ask Angie go and welcome her first..

Nearly 2pm we just go to the destiny.. With Angie too...

Our purpose is finding suit shoes for his show.. But we're found no one :'(

After having lunch Then just keep walking and waste the time...
But still have one hour to go just reach 6pm

Cause we get to meet with Sulian And Michael at Roti Bakar

Hmm.. Waiting in the car cause still have time.. Angie look so tired and she slept ady

Michael is sharing the newest album with us..

Every stories of each songs and the background of the movie and so on..

Err.. Include love stories of sulian me and others.. Blah blah blah.. Chit-chat in there

After finish eating.. get into his car and start to hear the songs..

But but but.. hehe.. feel weird and so on so change to his house.

First time to step in and so on.

He asked look so different and small right??

Ya.. Won't know of it if just look on the movie..

Sharing eveything... But.. Shijie have things to do so need to leave ady..

And me always because of some reasons.. wanna go back soon..

Feel so sorry to Michael and jiejie that can't continue of the newest that he wanna share and so on

Anyway, I'm glad to be there too at the night.. :)

( Taken from Michael without any permissions :P)

Hmmm... feel sorry to Shijie too.. cause everytime when she's out with me.. sure have some problems with me... Just to ignore what is it.. cause she know, i know, god know :)

But.. Stop arguing with me the sorry when you read of this..

Cause we know of it... Just stop it can ady.. I appreciate all of that ;)

Turn back to my problem.. I was wondering along the way that i back...

I wonder and wonder.. and i don't know why that time we're speaking to each other...

Anyway.. It's just a little thing.. Not a main point
The main point is i wish it's just a joke that mommy play with me

But i still feel scare if it's not a joke.. what can i do??

i don't know to handle if she's crying

Haih... And if really just a joke.. What's use that i wondered here??

Haih.. Don't know la... 

IN  THE END

5....4....3....2...1...

IT'S JOKE!!!

I don't have any April Fool in this year But i Get MAY FOOL

What the....

Haih... Everyone sure laugh of me.. The first person who have the May Fool =.=

Hmm.. Anyway.. Good that nothing happen la... God bless...
Tonight.. Dajie, mommy and tingfeng are preparing and cooking spagetti for our dinner
Hahah.. I'm so teruk.. even 7 years old kid also help in preparing but i'm still just waiting for eating :P
Dar said:" Nvm.. I cook for you can ady"
Aiyo... But dar.. you're not always by my side ma..
Hehe.. The spagetti really so nice :)
UHmmmm.. Taste Good ;)
Hehe.. Here's my days..
How's about you all..
Have fun of your days ;)
Stay Health and Happy =D