Lavender Teddy

If i found out this in one day

i wanna go to the lavender field

I wanna the lavender teddy :)

Hehe...
I know i have many teddies on my bed d
But i still wanna have it
Hehehe
Don't you think teddy always cute enough :D
Purple
Such a wonderful colour
The colour of imagination and spirituality
Some kind of luxury, wisdom, fantasy and the future
Love and Romance
:) 

Simply Thinking On That

Sometimes it really makes me hate on myself
Why??? I also don't know
Just feel sometimes i may too selfish and over did
I don't really ever care on others
Don't care of their feelings
Don't care of their minds
Don't care of them in many many different ways

Well... Someone told me that i'm not and i'm good enough
Someone told me don't think so much and look down myself
Someone told me i should climb myself up over the mountains in the life
Someone told me that noone will be 100% perfect
Someone told and ask me..
"Why you always so wondering and worrying and caring on others??? Why you can't have even more confidence on yourself? Why you can't stop thinking of others mind?? Why you so care their minds on you?? Why you always thinking of them but not yourself?? How about you?? Are you well?? Are you happy?? Why you want making yourself suffering???"

I answer him:" Me??Myself???..Haha.. i don't know.. Cause my rule is others can hurt on me.. oThers can did some bad things on me just me cannot did the same way on them.. Cause who ever did so sure got their own reasons that we cant understand on them.. Cause i was thinking that everyone sure have their good times in a way.. I was thinking that everyone will good although i know it just fooling myself.. But what can do?? Don't you think if think on this way, you can lie on yourself more and get some hopes on them more??"

He said i'm so stupid and haven't bloom and grow up.. Just like before..
He told me everyone can look down on you just yourself cannot did so..
Everyone can hate or dont like you but you MUST LOVE yourself more than others.
You need to be more strong and learning to protect yourself

Ya Ya.. I know.. I knew.. I understood..
Just i also wondering why i cant for..
Haha.. Sometime when i heard that i just smiling and told them why i need to protect myself?? You all will protect me right??
Heheh.. You can say there is a scheme on me..
Cause i'm abit scaring that once i know how to protect myself.. Will you all still beside and protect me??
I'm so glad  and thanks god for letting me to have you all by my side no matter how..
Maybe because i so loving you and i was scaring i will lost you all up in one day..
I don't know..
Just scaring....
I'm not so strong but i'm not so weak too...
Just don't think that i was brave enough to face all the problems and mistakes..
Please don't think that i'm so weak till i will ended my life up easily one i was standing on the edge..
I just need a big and warm hug to tight on me
I just need a hand who can hand me and stand with me to cross over it and touch the rainbow..
I just don't want you all too worry me
So i just pretending it's nothing in a smile but still wishing someone who understand me will come towards me..I know it's abit weird..
But that's me.. Sometimes.. I just need someone will knew that i'm not really happy and will protect me, give me supports and spirits..
Okay.. Once i written these down..
I know that there are really have someone who really did so on me..
I'm thanks them... Ya.. THEM.. not only one..
Because of you all i can standing up when i fell down
Because of you all i can seeing the shining stars in the midnight
Because of you all i can keep being myself
Please understand that i'm really love you all just the way you are loving me too..
Just sometimes i don't know how to express out my feelings so well to you all..
Everyone have their own way to love thier love..
And hope you all understand that it's just a one way for me to loving you

Okay.. For now.. I'm still trying to approach it to love myself more and learning to protect myself
But just sometimes i also don't know why i will hate that kind of me who always making others sad and disappointed..
i dont like the feeling.. just because of me and the day become dark..
Cause i love to look the smiles on the others faces..
A smile from someone who i care i love and around me.
Maybe you won't know.. Just a little love.. Just a little hug.. Just a little smile..
Even from the one who i dont like or others will melt my heart just in a second..
So i always try to be happy and make a smile on my face..And i'm controlling myself and love myself more..
Sometimes i may hurt others without any realise.. For this.. I'm saying sorry to you all here.. And hope you all don't mind and please forgive me...

Chinese New Year is coming up soon.. Will it be a good begining in a new year?? Will it be different and become better that the last year?? Well.. Hope it will becoming more and more meaningful..
Good luck for my future life..

Wish there always have another sunrise on tomorrow :)

FUTURE?????

I don't know why everytime once i was thinking of my future
i'm so confusing
i'm so annoying
and it's making me turning and turning around at the roundabout
Why eveyone are facing and on the way to try up their best for chasing their dreams
They are already have their on way and understand what they all need and want to be
Include my dear
Everytime i face on this suck question
I'm so admire and be envious on all of them
Why i couldn't be like them??
How long for wasting times here?? doing some nonsence things here..
everyone are doing and playing their parts well
What am i doing??!!!
Still shipping and shipping
OH NO!!!
WHY? WHY? WHY?
Who can tell me why
Why there is no my destiny yet?
How long should i been shipping and searching for just can reach it well??
Is it design will be my career in future?
Okayy...
I dont oppose or fight with this point
As i really have a dream that relate with design
i really love them well and hope one day i could be a famous and greatness designer
Well...
i know... It just a dream...
Since i never have a dream comes true
And i'm always dreaming and dreaming although i know sometimes all of these are out of reality
But i like for...
At least i could have it in my DREAMS
It also could be a reason why i put my blog's name as STILL SO FAR AWAY
Cause i'm just dreaming
just left few months and a small little paper which had written down the results of stpm which what we call it result slip
actually i dont think it well for
how come we need face through all these and just get a little paper
is it really enough and important for??
If your answer is "YES!"
then forget what i say
And that time all my life will be ended up with this little paper
Hahah..
It's so satirize and mock =.=
I hate all of these sucking stuffs
Oh! My God
Where is my angel??
Is he/she really beside me??
Why i can't be tough and strong enoght to face over it?
My future....What actually happened??
Graphic Fashion Interior
Advertising
All of these design.. Which one will be my final chose???
I was wondering and wondering
But there still no have any answer
Cause what i want...
It never will come towards me..........

無奈

每天對著電腦
眼睛又痛又累
不懂為何有些人那麼渴望上班
老師不也是職業嗎？？/
如果真的可以
老師也不錯
有固定收入
時間又自由
有休息時間
不必整天對著熒幕
把自己搞的像是形式走漏
每當眼睛感到疲倦了
可望窗外
天空藍
寧靜帶著輕鬆
稻草綠油油
可讓眼皮鬆弛一會兒
偏偏辦公室白燈一盞盞
面向壁也是白
哎喲
我又不是病了
這裡不是醫院
醫院還有窗戶可觀望外面的世界
但這裡的位置沒有窗口
我看不見天空
不能把自己變得輕鬆
如果我是一名頂尖設計師
我有與眾不同的
有種舒適 有家的感覺
有種溫暖 輕鬆卻不失時尚感
舒服卻不失所謂的工作感或工作量
而不是這種沉悶監獄似的
有種壓迫感
搞得自己頭疼得要命
真夠難受
讓我忙碌
我還樂意
讓我坐著沒事幹
就算我總發呆也有限度吧
越線了
我可撐不住啊
真夠痛恨著感覺

渴望的明天

落叶飘落
别问目标
只求方向

时间流失了
冲浪前方
发现迷路了
即在茫茫海蓝之中
路途比想象中来的更遥远
漂浮之中
必有风险
不是所有人能把事情想得太简单
毕竟是比一般人想得更多
才决定选择一开始的简单
概括所有了所有盲点
所有复杂
简单其实最不简单

快乐是种表情
是是非题
也是选择题
但前提是心灵的成长
一味强求
把自己弄得遍体鳞伤

望着墙上的时钟
分针秒针还在不停的奔跑
日历一张又一张地被撕开
日夜翻新 更新
日记写了一页又一页
每一天的故事却总延续在明天
每个人的故事都不同
何谓把他人的故事
编制在自己的童话里
既不特别
也不是自己的风格
重点是
主角不是自己

银河系里繁星点点
眼睛眨呀眨
相信自己就是当中最闪耀的光芒

更何况
我的守护星一直都在
而且不止一个

磨练自己
日子久了
就会发觉
向日葵的骄傲

Text myself

每个人都有犯错的时候
就别太在意
忍一时
风平浪静
退一步
海阔天空
加油吧
Nothing is impossible
笑一笑
保持开朗
总有一天会发现成功就在前方
Relax
Happy And That's Life :)
(this is what i write and say to myself this morning when i have some problems with my works)
But in the end..
i'm lose
cause there are something make me sad
because of he come back
but i cant meet him up
because every times i have problems
i miss up on him
i miss up on Sulian Ong
but both of them are not around me that time
furthermore
shi jie is not good and sad too..
i was trying to control myself and dont cry
but what make me more sad is she keep say is her fault that make me sad
Grrr.. i was explaining and explaining
but she cant get it..
actually i'm a loser..
cause every time when i cant let one understand
or i can fight over
and i dono how to let them understand
i will cry
i dono why
but i really did so
i cant tahan anymore
so i walk to toilet
close myself in toilet
let the tears roll down again
haha..
stupid am i..
maybe after crying out..
and i was say to myself
once i step out again..
it just seem nothing and be a good day
so i dono why
i really been fine d..
hehe
i think shijie that time will feel this girl abit crazy..
hahaha..
dont ask me how i did it..
dont ask me why i can change my mood so suddenly..
i also dono why and i cant explain on it..
what i can say is THAT'S ME ^^
Heheh.. so hope you understand on it la...
and hope you can over your sad soon :)

There are hundreds of languages around the world
But a SMILE speaks them all :)

Every single thing that happens in life has its own meanings
Let us smole to our life :) ^^

问题是人生的礼物

遇到逆境要心生感激，不应浪费，

因为可遇不可求。

                           【逆增上缘】

                             指出了所有的逆境，是为了成长自己。

                             如果人生莫一扇门被关上，上帝一定帮你开启另一扇窗。

有感恩心的人，比较不会陷入逆境。

                          

                                从一个遇见生命挑战的人，转化成为生命的设计师，

                                从险于问题的死胡同里，走出问题的康庄大道来。

          

               做个生命设计师！
                          将遭遇的问题转化成为人生的礼物。

                                                           把每一天动荡做最后一天。

人生最难圆满   总是有些遗憾需要修补

总有些问题需要解困。

                                                        遭到喜悦的生存之道。

              承担贡献的使命做事，

                           你就是上天赐给别人的礼物。

                                                             

                                                              如果你对自己不满意，及时得到全世界的财富，

                                                                          都不能让你快乐。

     为自己画上一扇窗！！

                                                   真正幸福的人生，是建筑在新的快乐，

                                                   而非身的享受。

                                遇到困难挫则时，要当作是练习

                                        才能真正锻炼出街各种变化球的实力

人无法要求十全十美

         若执意求事事如意

                        心永远不能满足

                                    人生必然有缺陷

心情影响

人不管遇到了什么困难
都得拼了命
往上爬 向前冲
殊不知
你努力了再努力
期望后得到失望
失望了再充满希望
重复再重复
面对一次又一次的失败和打击
开始怀疑自己
产生幻觉和错觉
开始自责等
所有负面情绪开始涌上来
开始转牛角尖
也开始选择了放弃

试问？
有谁知道再决定放弃的那一刻
就永远无法知道
所谓的梦想
所谓的成功
其实就差那么一步
就因为无法再承担痛苦而放弃
而始终无法抵达终点
人生的每一天
都是张白纸
一天的经历
一天的故事
一天的心情
都美化了它的存在

我虽然也不是常常都嘻皮笑脸
当然
每个人都有悲伤、难过、忧愁、烦恼
但如果悲观面对
永远停在那儿
或选择了逃避
所有问题都不会因此而自己解决
即使解决了
那你自己呢？？
对于自己内心那关卡
你通过了吗？？？
所以，
我唯有常常允许自己放肆哭泣悲伤
但是，哭过后，发泄后
我也必须学习变得更坚强、更坚定、更勇敢
虽然有些事、心灵会随着成长而改变
但我却依然相信世界是美好的
因为所遇到的问题困难
其实是上帝给自己的礼物
助你成长
而且这些是可遇不可求的
有些事
若会让自己难受就别再思考、别再执着
转移注意力
想着开心的事
想着重要的人
想着关心你的人
想着那些珍惜过的一切
想着未来还很遥远
想着人生道路还很长
想着人生的目的
想着爱的人
想着梦想
想着还有很多事等着自己去创造

一年有365天
既然来日方长
开心是一天
不快乐也是一天
为何不让自己做个快乐的傻瓜？
人就是要有着理由让自己开心
别太早说办不到、自己不行
自己都信不过自己
哪会成功
不要认为自己没有用
即使有时会觉得时间转得太快
一刻都不停留
一刻都不等待
唯有重拾自己
让自己找会希望
再次出发
未来还在未来
珍惜自己
珍惜自己
在你收割的时候
你的收获肯定会让你出乎意料
感到满足
感到幸福
雨后总有彩虹的出现
相信自己
相信奇迹
笑一笑
日子一样过得精彩
NEVER SAY NEVER!!!
EVERY SINGLE DAYS IS A NEW LIFE
=) =D

Key To Success

" A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him" ____ David Brinkley

" Success doesn't come to you???
   You go to it! " ____ Marva Collins

" The successful always has a number of projects planned, to which he looks forward.
  Anyone of them could change the course of his life overnight." ___ Mark Caine

" In business, the competition will bite you if you keep running;
  if you stand still, they will swallow you." ___ William Knudsen Jr

" Love only grows by sharing. You can only have more for yourself by giving it away to others." ___ Brian Tracy

" Humans have the remarkable ability to get exactly what they must have. But there is a difference between a 'MUST' and 'WANT' " ___ Jim Rohn

"When two people meet, there are really six people present. There is each man as he sees himself, each man as he wants to be seen, and each man as he really is." ____ Michael De Saintamo

" Learn how to be happy with what you have while you pursue all that you want." ____ Jim Rohn

"Everything depends upon execution; having just a vision is no solution." ___ Stephen Soudheim

"I know the price of success: dedication, hard work and an unremitting devotion to the things you want to see happen." ____ Frank Lloyd Wright

"The love of a family is life's greastest blessing." ____ Johann Schiller

"Try not to become a man of success but a man of value"____ Albert Einstein

笔记

今天
下班后，我又去抒洁的店光顾
不是为了买鞋，而是为了和她出去逛夜市
有时，在哪儿待着。。
待久了。。觉得有点不好意思。。
虽然她是说没关系的。。
她不会介意，她的妈妈也很欢迎我。。
但有时还真的不好意思。。毕竟那不是我的家，也不是她的家。。
而是人家看门做生意的地方
而我却有事没事往那儿跑，往那儿待。。
试问世上哪有像我那么厚脸皮的人？？
哈哈哈。。。
怎么说呢？？
就。。。呃。。
哎呀。。不会形容那种感觉啦。。
反正就只是觉得。。没有其他意思。。
希望你不会介意。。
哦哦。。还有还有。。就不要不好意思了。。
其实我不介意待在你的店。。
我介意的事我的存在会打扰到你们。。
你的对不起让我感觉更对你感到过意不去。。
毕竟你对我也不错。。吃饭，逛街，旅行，在我回家等。。
你也从没怨言。。
哈哈。。谢谢你。。因为我知道我再说下去，又得被你说了。。
哈哈哈。。其实你说的，我都明白。。
但有时还是会怎么想的。。
你不也一样吗？？ 呵呵

吃过晚餐后，我们就去逛夜市。。
那里有点暗。。
一开始，真不知该从那里开始。。
但，还是走完了。。
当中总有意想不到的事。。
谈情说笑。。
呵呵。。。感觉还真不错。。。
我们买了一样款式的上衣。。
呵呵。。
其实一件简单的事也会甜入心头。。
知足常乐
呵呵呵。。
有些故事，我没写出，并不代表我忘记了。。
只是有些事，不必记录，不是说出，也会记得。。。
愿每一天都会是个美好精彩的一天 ：）

Specially For You

Hehehe...
Don't so jealous or say i'm partiality and bias that never written any things bout you...
Sometimes i don't know how to written down or express out the actual feelings...
 Just remember it..
You are the first one who means special to me..
You are the one who i care the most..
you are the one who can make me feel all the warms and loves..
You are the one who make me cry.. make smile...
Make me feel the love is true..
You are the one who always standing my side...
Never to leave me...
You are the one who i really don't want to lose...
You are the one who means important to me...
Actually...
For you...
I have many stories with you...
Just i cant even written them as well...
Cause these are my sweet memories
I just always remember it well and missing you much...
I don't know why i cant really control myself...
It getting more and more...
Until full up..
It still filling up all the loves that i wanna give to you...
But i don't know what i did
Is it welll???
Just sometimes i will think so much....
Wonder so much..
So.. Hope you will understand on me...
Without you..
I can't fix up the puzzles...
Just remember it...
YOU ARE MY ANGELS
And you always do..
I love you My Dear Darling <3 <3 <3

01012014

Happy New Year!!!
Today is the first time i really work and replace a friend's job..
And today many complex are closing..
My part is under purchasing and sales..
So i have abit free in the office..
just helping others do their part and learning new things..

Hehe.. erm.. others are nice too..
Hehe.. but a funny things is they are so shocked when knew i'm just having bread for my lunch..
And then after getting off just go back and eat..
heheh..
they say thay cant do that..
and will be hungry soon..
But i think ok la...
hehehe...
习惯就好嘛 ：）
hehehe..
then since that day..
Everytime they will ask me..
"today you eat breads for lunch again???"
Heheh.. dono i suppose be happy or what emotions...

Hehehe.. last night..
I kena played by his bro pulak..
Honestly..
It's nothing la..
Just when i think back..
It's just like abit shocked and funny only :P
我还真傻傻被作弄
Anyway
It's a great start..
Happy is good..
Hahahah =D

This afternoon..
I have lunch together with shi jie..
we have chicken rice..
and today i just know what we call 凉茶，you will get Barli..
Hahhaha.. A something like black or brown colour will receive a white colour
and change the taste..
Hahax..
I know it just something wrong..
everyone sure will make mistakes..
Even me...
just i think it fun..
Haha

Hmm...
Dono what her family will think on me leh???
Always go her shop and find her..
Disturb their business..
Heeheh...
But.. Just know on it..
That call who am i :)
Hahhaa..
And now..
I can shout and say loudly to others again..
I am still who am i...
Even maybe some parts i have change..
But i still can proud to say it out..
I'm not changing..
As i am still who am i..
Who you ever know before who named ONG CHING LING
What we have changed is we are growing up...
We are passing through the toughs..
We are understanding more...
We are caring ourselves more..
We are learning from others and so on... :)

So...
i want to told you..
Shi jie...
ya... i said" WE MUST HAVE SOME HOPES TO CARRY ON OUR LIFES"
And it also just like one part of my quotes can make me become more happy..
MOre hopes..
More fun to continue my life.. To pass over the stones..
And i understand your feelings too...
Cause i always emo before..
Just like nearly crying every days..
YOu know?? Is EVERY DAYS
Hehehe..
Just maybe before i just like acting and acting...
Just dont want others get know i'm sad or so on..
Just dont want others worry..
Just thinking too much and others..
So always laughing and laughing...
I dono how to say..
Sometimes..
IT really damn hard to express out our feelings...
Just follow your heart..
Once you think you want..
Just carry on...
Dont think so much...
(Hahahahah... Sometimes can give supports and helping others..
But once we are in the same situations..
We cant even follow what we had ever told to others...
Hahaha.. =D
This call Human Beings )

Hehehe...
Happy is just a simple life..
And it the most powerful for a life
it's really function well
Hehe..
But the first rule..
You must find out the way..
And really happy from your true heart..
Once you really did it..
You will understand what i'm saying here..
Go and Create your Journey ^^

Hmmm..
One more things..
Just remember on it..
Hahah..
He's shi jie's brother..
He always make me laughing...
Don't know why..
Just his reactions and the way he speaking..
Make me feel wanna laugh
And his characteristics really really like zuyi
Cant imagine when they are be friends and being together..
If not, i think that time i will laughing and laughing until there is no any stop button
Haiya..
You know de la..
I'm the one who have the lowest and lowest until negative infinity of laughing points...
Hahahaha..
Don't know it's a good or a bad characteristics...
Hihihi..
Anyway...
Then they will recognize me more, right??
Hahahha...

I think i just stop here tonight la...
Good night everyone...
Have a peaceful and sweet dreams
Muacks :-*
^^