13062014

I don't know how long i have frozen of my blog already
That's full of story and things happening during my days
Happiness?? Worry?? Sad?? Upset?? Annoy?? Hopes?? Give up???
What the Hell that i have done???!!!
Seriously..
I know i nee dot face all of these during my life..
It's time for growth. It's time to learn.. It's time to make decision and how to follow your ways..
Talk about my uni life first...
I like to learn with the subjects.. but there's nearly full of assessments for each subjects except MPU subjects like critical thinking, Tamadun Islam dan Asia and English Language.
Seriously, for the fashion course, i'm learning start with zero although i have touch about drawing before.. That's much different between it.. Just like the the colour wheel... It like a simple thing but i redo it nearly 4 times and still don't know am i correct with the colour mixing and so on or not.. Such a difficulty to mix the colour.. And we are not using poster colour anymore.. The lecturer always shoot us with a word" You all are degree students, not kinder or high school anymore.. Be the way you are... Blah Blah Blah....."
But i like a subject which is critical thinking.. I don't know why but i love to learn.. maybe it more about the thinking and so on... it shows mw what i can feel and think.. And it make me feel like a novel that i ever read before " Sophies Verden"...
Nothing Is Impossible and don't ever get any conflict with the believing..
I don't know how many times i was complaining of myself and so on.. But i really did.. I know i cannot keep like this but i did...
The last tuesday( 10.06.2014)
The most moody and bring me deep down day
Cause i lose my phone and i can't do anything with it
I went to KAMDAR somewhere Masjid Jamek there..
I remember that time someone knock on me and i hear something fall down but i can't find anything
Just within 2 minutes. I can't find it anymore..
I still keep some hopes although i know there is the least percentage will be found..
I still need to be strong and so on..
But i very curious that why this such big company don't have any CCTV and so on..
It make me really losing the mood.. I try to calm down myself and wait for mommy they all come..
I try to be strong and tough.. I never let a drop coming down until when i reached home..
I remembered i dint eat and drink all along the day till i start my gastric pain..
I remembered how i was making all people around me was worrying of me especially of my dear mom..
I remembered all of that and this day still remembered in my mind..
If you ask me don't mind of it anymore..
Seriously.. Honestly.. I can't do that.. I just can try myself to forget it temporary..
The heart make me so painful when i remembered that i was so careless and make all my love worry me..
I'm not purposely to make all of them been this.. But i really so sorry to been that as i really can't control it anymore..
I can't stop my mind every free moment to think of that..
It was turning and turning all around my mind..
I don't know how long i was with that.. But i can tell you i be okay right from now..
If you ask me will i don't mind or sad or cry anymore?
I will told you that it was a scar in my heart that i can't even remove it anymore..
I won't be cry but it will been pain every time i saw somethings relate with it and can remind me of it..
I just can be calm and accept it..
I had told ting that we should be more strong and tough in this world.. The life really not goes trough easily..
I know there are still have a lot stages and adventures to go through..
but what can i do??
I just can still try to believe that i can go through it and do it well..
I know life can be so peaceful and nice but it mean nothing if we din't face it with the correct feelings and true hearts..