Honestly.. I'm glad you had come into my life..
Although it just a short time...
really.. I know what have you done on me..
I never never think that in one day.. i will become alone and everyone is hated on me...
Maybe.. yOu are right.. i'm not really understanding on you..
you said when a friend so polite between each others.. That's means the friendship is getting end..
I'm not blaming at you.. but just on me..
You said you are trying hard for... But noone will take good care on it...
I was thinking and thinking...
What's going on between you and me actually...
Not only you care and border on it..
Not only you will been sad..
Someone who dint say out does not mean they are good enough...
They're just better in pretending compare with you...
We're noy understanding each other mind..
And we're not so franking or confessing between each other..
you wont know that What the things happen are making me losing myself...
You wont know that how many times i was trying to close with and say "Shall we talk awhile?"
But it just gettong out in my mind...
You wont know that How this such things are making me feel so annoying..
You wont know that because of this, I was crying for many times..
Until my eyes become red and swollen...
You wont know that how i always holding and taking care with the relationship between friend..
You wont know that my life is getting darker and darker..
You wont know that i was thinking to commit suicide and getting away from this world..
You wont know that what i want to be...
Just because of we're not too close.. And there are so much misunderstanding between you and me..
Actually no only you.. But others stilll...
This problems are sucking me...
I'm not angrying on you..
Not blaming on you...
Just hoping all of us will getting well..
I will try to do my part in a correct way...
Now only i know...
How weak am i..
How stupid am i..
How crazy am i...
How....
And i think i have no confidence at alll d...
I have no confidence like before.. I cant say it "I AM STILL WHO I AM" loudly to others...
Cause i think everytjing is changing and changing..
Include you and me...
Maybe will be the same...Maybe not..
It depends on how the others looking on me...
I will try to do as Thomas.. How he can just with 15 words and another quote..
And he csn carry on his life so bravely..
And just because of him... He was saving a life of a guy who is thinking to end his life once...
He's his twelth angel...
Is it really have an angel in this world???
I dont know... Maybe..
And who will as my angel????
I think it got.. And i will keeping them staying in my heart..
So i have a reason to continue my life...
